plan d

here i am sitting in a room i’ve sat in on so many other blurry nights

slowly burning the hours until dawn waiting to come down

another room

another group assembled for the very human habit of self destruction

as the sun rises one passes out on his bed of blankets

two go off to fuck two sit on the couch across from me talking over the tv

and one that wishes i was fucking her on my right

but i can’t get there it’s all wrong now

the thread has run its reel and i lose its tenuous pull

my mind has all but left me during my chemically induced out of body experience

and i sit like a pillar 

some ancient monolith

numb and weightless

it feels as if there is this void and i am being propelled across it

all the moments that came before this one have led me to this point

i was here because i was supposed to be here

with my toxic company

i used the substances to abuse myself  

my world had been lost somewhere behind 

and now i stumble through a foreign landscape

lost and unable to speak the language i suffer for the human comforts

nothing but fodder for the species i throw this pearl to swine

the sun rises and the drugs begin to tumble down

addicts instinct kicks in and i know i must go home 

the day becomes whole and finds me only half

so i leave the girl and the room because i don’t want them anymore